do you ever feel dead? I feel. I can feel already dead sometimes, my body very heavy, my moves clumsy and difficult. a cloud around. or just plain very old. and tired. you feel your body, solid, but you can´t feel any energy. it´s a piece of flesh and bones without a spirit to animate it. it happens.

my chart says its a transit, a time of death and rebirth. last night I took a long hard look at my work and tried to make it new, to bring it closer to my heart. it makes no sense to go drawing funny stories when your heart its so heavy. its a matter of letting your heart goes to the page without it becoming just a confession, a whining. lets see if I can begin again.